The Journey to Realizing your Dreams

The jounrey to realizing your dreams

Life can be tricky.

Some­times we know what is we want, but don’t have a clue how to get there. Oth­er times, we have no idea what the fuck we are sup­posed to do with our pre­cious time giv­en to us on earth. Then, final­ly, we feel we have achieved our call­ing– fig­ured out what it is we are meant to do. Only to wake up one day and real­ize this “isn’t me” at all.


Life is fun­ny like that. All the moments are just pieces to a puz­zle lead­ing and nav­i­gat­ing you along the way to your true call­ing, but some­times being stuck in fear and look­ing in the wrong direc­tions can cause us to become stressed about how to move for­ward.

I know this all too well. It has been my life for the past four to five months.

Some of you may recall In August  I decid­ed to leave my teach­ing job in Korea due to men­tal health rea­sons and to pur­sue my true dreams of becom­ing a Natur­o­path­ic doc­tor. For those of you who are unaware, a natur­o­path­ic doc­tor is a doc­tor that treats patients on a holis­tic lev­el pro­vid­ing nat­ur­al modal­i­ties to heal the patient. I decid­ed to pur­sue this path because I have an affin­i­ty for health and help­ing those in the com­mu­ni­ty heal and be their own hero– hence the name of the blog lol.

Appre­hen­sive and anx­ious i decid­ed to pur­sue my jour­ney to become a natur­o­path­ic doc­tor. To accom­plish this dream it required me to take a year of sci­ence pre­req­ui­sites then apply to one of the sev­en natur­opa­thy schools for a dura­tion of four years. Amount­ing to a whop­ping five years. Although, the tim­ing was dread­ful, after all, who wants to go to school for 5 years at the age of 25, not me! But, then i remem­bered that those 5 years were going to pass any­way and I might as well be doing some­thing i love.

So I came back to my alma mater Flori­da State Uni­ver­si­ty to com­plete the year of sci­ence perquisites. I was excit­ed and tru­ly felt I was on the right track to ful­fill­ing my des­tiny. Let me clar­i­fy, my dream is to one day own a well­ness cen­ter that address­es all of the clien­t’s health con­cerns. it will be a one-stop shop. So let’s say, you come in with a skin care con­cern you will be seen by a natur­o­path­ic doctor/herbalist/functional med­i­cine doc­tor to address the root cause. Then based on the pro­to­col that is giv­en you will be able to be seen by our estheti­cian and even have access to steam rooms, saunas, hydrother­a­py, and oth­er treat­ments.

I thought the one way to accom­plish this mon­u­men­tal dream was to become a natur­o­path­ic doc­tor.

Being back these past few months have taught me a lot about the beau­ty of the uncer­tain­ty in life. And that there are “jew­els” in the shape of peo­ple, recur­rent num­bers, strangers help­ing you to reach your end goal.

These past few months in school have been stress­ful. I real­ly have to com­mend sci­ence majors, because it is A LOT of hard work– it was by far the most chal­leng­ing cours­es i have ever tak­en. I was deter­mined to get to my end goal of becom­ing a natur­o­path­ic doc­tor or so i thought.

God planting Omens in my Path  

One day, my best friend Christi­na called me, she always has my best inter­est in heart. So I was total­ly recep­tive when she shared her hon­est opin­ion about my jour­ney to natur­opa­thy school. She felt that med­ical school would be a bet­ter path because I could help change the sys­tem of health­care. Also, be able to spread the nat­ur­al heal­ing process more effec­tive­ly by being a med­ical doc­tor. Hon­est­ly, what she said stuck, but i did have some appre­hen­sions about med­ical school.


  •  are doc­tors open to dif­fer­ent heal­ing approach­es? Would I get black­list­ed for offer­ing an alter­na­tive solu­tion?
  • Would i thor­ough­ly enjoy the prac­tice of med­i­cine?
  • Was I equipped enough to actu­al­ly be a med­ical doc­tor?
  • Did I real­ly want to go to school for eight long years?


So, I did the next best thing, I sought out med­ical doc­tors and stu­dents and begin inter­view­ing them about their expe­ri­ence. My goal was to fig­ure out the “right” route i was sup­posed to take, but all it did was con­fuse me even more.  Every day, I plead­ed with God to bring me some sort of clar­i­ty, was i meant to pur­sue the unknowns of natur­opa­thy, was I sup­pose to be an inte­gra­tive doc­tor, acupunc­tur­ist or med­ical doc­tor.  I just did not know! Every day, i talked about it with my close friends and boyfriend hop­ing they could shed some light on what it was i was meant to do all to no avail.

The journey to realizing your dreams

Remembering what I love

Until one day my friend Jen­nise accom­pa­nied me to get a facial. Jen­nise is my soul sis­ter her spir­it a reflec­tion of my own. She’s inter­est­ed in becom­ing an estheti­cian and on that day she had a tour with Ave­da ( the beau­ty school) she asked if i want­ed to join. I decid­ed to tag along and it was A DREAM. The ther­a­peu­tic envi­ron­ment was invit­ing. I was in awe of watch­ing the peo­ple get facials and see­ing the stu­dents engrossed in learn­ing how to do it.

This expe­ri­ence remind­ed me of my first love, skin care. Skin­care has always been my first love since I was a lit­tle girl. I want­ed to pur­sue skin­care but always felt like my skin was­n’t per­fect enough to be an estheti­cian, but that was then and this was now. It def­i­nite­ly left an imprint to poten­tial­ly pur­su­ing esthi­ol­o­gy. Still, I knew i need­ed to cou­ple that with a deep­er heal­ing tech­nique to address real issues lying in the body. Which brought me back to the men­tal fight of which path was best.

Anoth­er friend sug­gest­ed I make a pro’s and con’s list of going to natur­opa­thy school. After list­ing out the pros and cons i had a strong inkling that I’d come out regret­ting hav­ing had gone to natur­opa­thy school. Let’s be real, I did­n’t want to strug­gle for anoth­er 4 years and live off of loans to fund myself through and med­ical school was a hard no for me.

I want­ed to help peo­ple and I want­ed to help them now! I knew there had to be a bet­ter alter­na­tive suit­ed for my jour­ney.

The Realization

one night upon research­ing I came across clin­i­cal herbal­ism which proved to be very sim­i­lar to natur­opa­thy sans the for­mal doc­tor title, 100,000 in loans, and the use of tech­ni­cal ter­mi­nol­o­gy. Clin­i­cal herbal­ism is, using the appro­pri­ate herbal pro­to­cols and nat­ur­al prod­ucts to sup­port and rebal­ance the body and restore vital­i­ty for gen­er­al health and well being.

It made sense to take this path; herbal­ism mesh­es well with my goas. And while i feel like i let those down who were expect­ing me to become a doc­tor; per­son­al­ly it was­n’t plau­si­ble for me to take that route. I had to give myself a real­i­ty check, that this path is my own. And at the age of 25, of course, I don’t know what hell I’m doing! I’m just nav­i­gat­ing the world like every­one else.

What I’m say­ing is, all of this hap­pened because it was meant to. It was meant for me to come back to my alma mater because while natur­opa­thy was­n’t the path for me I was­n’t too far off from my true call­ing: becom­ing a clin­i­cal herbal­ist pos­si­bly cou­pled with esthi­ol­o­gy

So to those of you who are figuring out your life’s journey, as I believe is a constant thing we all are doing.

A path is a track laid down to walk on. A path implies there’s only one way, a pre­con­ceived sin­gu­lar course. Well, guess what? there is no such thing as ONE path. There are infi­nite routes to a sat­is­fy­ing, uplift­ing, life. What­ev­er deci­sion you make—and have made before—you’re on the right path. It’s all “the path.” Stand glee­ful­ly in the con­fu­sion because the only way not to be con­fused is to get through the uncer­tain­ty. The feel­ing of the unknown is just a part of it.

As always, hon­or your­self, your intu­ition, and flow with the cur­rent of life, not against it.

A strong thank you to those who played a part in help­ing me fig­ure things out, whether you knew it or not. Thank you to the love of my life: my boyfriend, my best friend Christi­na, soul sis­ter Jen­nise, and friend Vyse and many oth­ers who offered encour­ag­ing advice and sup­port. Love you guys!

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Share in the comments how you came to realize your dreams? Or what are you mentally battling with when it comes to your dreams?

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